Six months in and I’m deep, DEEP into the trek of a job search. If you are there too… I feeeeeeeeel you. At this moment I would give you a slight head tilt and a fist bump insinuating to keep on keepin on. Many days I can’t help for my heart to feel anxious or discouraged by the days ahead, but I have to remember that my God is active and is making a way. These past months at home have served a far greater purpose in my life than I could have ever thought. He is using this time to refine me by fire and to teach me about His never changing character. Many days I feel like I am in a drought when it comes to hearing from the Lord, but this past week He spoke so clearly to me through his Word and others. He corrected and encouraged me in so many of my incorrect thoughts and this is what I heard.
God cannot be boxed in by limitations, standards or “the norm”.
I was supposed to hear back about a job on Monday. If I don’t hear by Wednesday than I definitely didn’t get it because “the norm” is to let the Winners know first to see if they accept, and then tell the Losers later. <– Yep, that’s what runs through my head. While that is true, so is the fact that God is God. He runs be zero sets of rules and he can defy every. single. bit. of norm. HE DOES MIRACLES FOR HEAVEN SAKES. There is nothing that He cannot do. Period. My faith should be pending on how great my God is, not on the day of the week.
“I am the Lord, the God of mankind. Is ANYTHING too hard for me?” Jeremiah 32:27
God desires for me to find peace in the truth of His word.
In a season where serious doubts can flood in at all times, the most clear truth to cling to is in God’s word. He wants us to trust that he created us wonderfully, His timing is perfect, and peace and joy can be found in the present moment. Jesus would never lead us down a destructive path; He invites us to walk with him and live a full life. These verses have been everything during the past few months.
- John 10:10, “The devil comes to steal, kill and destroy, but I have come to give life and life to the full.”
- 2 Timothy 1:7,”For God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, love and self-discipline.”
- John 14:27, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
- Psalms 139:13-14, “For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”
- Zephaniah 3:17, “For the LORD your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”
- Romans 8:28, “”We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”
God’s definition of failure looks different than our world’s view of failure.
The Lord doesn’t see failure in not finding a job or not keeping your new years resolutions. The Lord sees failure in lacking the obedience to follow him, fully. It’s when he asks us to jump and we are too fearful to say Yes. Success to Jesus = Faith. In Isaiah 55 it says, “As a seed yields results in a farmers field is as His word is. It will not return empty, but will achieve its intended purpose .” God’s word will never come back to Him empty. In His promises, you will find success.
Back in August, Jesus asked me to jump. That is 100% certain. I was running the race trusting that the Lord would provide. But I think somewhere along the way, I started putting stipulations on the run and less faith in God without realizing it. “K Lord, I’ve moved home. I jumped. But not going anywhere until you provide a job.” <— Eh, while that is nice and all to pretend I have control, pretty sure that’s not what God meant when he said, “Come and follow me.”
Yesterday my sister told me about a story in her bible study that had a simple and clear message. A band had been praying for a drummer and month after month, no drummer came. Then one of the members heard God say, “Buy a drum set.” Obvious arguments were made of why they shouldn’t make the purchase: they would lose money, a drummer could already have a set, and so much more. In spite of these reasons, they bought a drum set in faith asking the Lord to provide.
Sometimes, life requires active faith. That may mean moving or “buying the drum set” without any certainty of the future, but with full faith that God will provide the way. God is calling me again – Hannah, it’s time. Make a faith based decision knowing I AM GOD and I WILL provide.
So a decision has been made, and WOW it feels good.
I AM EXCITED.
Nashville, LET’S DO THIS!